Well, lets start this journey off with what and how it came about.

I am in no way where I want to be in life. Honestly, it truly is depressing. I have had several bouts of depression over the course of the last 10 - 15 years. Sometimes I have sought out medication to help and when it did not help, or I felt that it was not helping, I would stop taking it.

There are a few things I want to focus on this coming year:

1) Being Celibate
~ Since I was 15 years old, every relationship I have been in has had sex as a HUGE part of it. Bored? Lets have sex! Fighting? Lets  have sex! Sad? Lets have sex! This clouds judgment and hinders us from truly seeing the honest nature of the relationship. I would have spent WAY less time in most of those situations. Not to mention this has seemed to create a sense of comfort that neither of us has felt a nudge to progress in the relationship. Most importantly is my relationship with God. A year ago I joined a church and I have grown sooooo much. I am now the Pastors Assistant/Secretary. The deeper I get into my relationship with God the more I feel convicted to live my life in a way that is pleasing to him. Having sex outside of marriage is DEFINITELY not pleasing to him! I want and deserve a man that will strive to love me the way God does. If he can't work for the cookies, he doesn't deserve to eat them!

2) My HURR (hair)
~ For a few years now I have been back and forth with transitioning my hair from relaxed to natural. This year, I am going to find my determination and motivation to keep going! I get frustrated and I want to give up. I plan to hunker down and commit myself to a better view on my hurr! My entire life has been spent with a relaxer and the thoughts that long hair were better.

3) My Body
~ Since giving birth to my daughter in 2007 I have been unhappy with my body. Before pregnancy, I was 100 lbs. Now, I hover around 165 lbs. I am only 5ft tall. I have a substantial amount up top and on the bottom but this belly pouch, love handles, back fat and jiggly arms HAVE TO GO! I have developed Fibromyalgia, High Blood Pressure and Severe Headaches. So, what to do to get this under control? WORK! Thats the only option! Anyone care to help me look for my sexy? It seems to be hiding! LOL!

 All of that being said, I hope that you guys will stick around, watch, participate and most of all offer insight, support and love as I begin this journey! I can't wait to see where I am as of 12/31/2015!!!